Breast Size and Self Esteem

Breast Size and Self Esteem

(By Melissa Dejanude)

Breast Size and Self Esteem

Breast Size and Self Esteem - As a little girl, most of my friends were boys. It wasn’t that I didn’t have female friends, I was a tomboy who preferred the ruff-and-tumble style of play that I could engage in with boys. It wasn’t until one fateful day in the fifth grade that I began to re-evaluate my choice of playmates. I was sitting at my desk, when a group of male classmates informed me that I had won first place in a poll that decided which of the girls in class had the largest chest. I immediately began to feel a sense of discomfort in knowing that the people who I considered to be my friends were actually looking at me as a sexual object. I had always loved being able to get along with both girls and my male counterparts, but that day changed my ability to do that. Although I resented them for making me feel that way, the end result was a sense of shame about my breasts.

As most girls in my class could not wait until their budding breasts peaked, I, on the other hand, could not wait for mine to stop growing. While many girls my age began wearing padded and push up bra, I, on the other hand, stuck to the models that would minimize them. But they never went away, and I was made even more aware of them once other girls began making comments.

I finally came to the realization that there was nothing that I could do about them at the end of junior high. Once I entered high school, I became surrounded by older girls with much more developed figures. Suddenly I was no longer faced with the issue of being the only top heavy girl on campus, but then a new issue surfaced: I felt underdeveloped. In comparison to seventeen year old young women, a fourteen year old’s body pales in comparison. I felt a sense of insecurity and inadequacy when I looked at them, and that did not feel any better than what I felt before.

As my body continued to change and grade levels above me eventually moved on, I was again put in a familiar position: the busty girl on campus. Although it was not a new experience, it was still painful to realize that people no longer saw me for me; they only saw what was on the outside.

Breast Size and Self Esteem

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