Body Image Struggles And Feeling Good About Myself
( This Blog – Body Image Struggles – Was Written by: Anon)
Body Image Struggles – Growing up in a world of judgement can often be difficult for anyone and as an aspiring makeup artist I was always pulled into the world of fashion quite strongly. Everything about the world of fashion drew me to study, collect, and flip through fashion magazines. I held onto those magazines as if they were gold. Not only did they help me understand fashion and gain understanding for what is couture, it also left me thinking that the models in that magazine were the substance for beauty.
For years these images had been my basis of what beautiful is and I always modeled my weight and look after them. But then something happened to me that I didn’t expect… I tied the knot!
For me being married at a young age wasn’t only stressful, it was also difficult. My focus changed from trying to subside in the world of fashion, to trying to make a breaking marriage withstand. As the first year was coming to a close, the craziest thing happened, I gained fifty pounds! To my surprise, every pound of that weight was met without noticing until one day I looked in the mirror and was horrified about the way I looked. I tried everything from rash dieting, pills, to exercising and I only managed to lose about twenty of those new pounds.
In the beginning, I my body image struggles were so bad that I couldn’t stand the way my body looked and I tried to dress the same way I did previously, but that was not a good idea. I realized that I needed to change my wardrobe. I wasn’t happy with myself in the nude and felt as if I was going to be judged for the way I looked.
One day I was searching around the internet and came across a beautiful full-sized girl. This girl was shaped similar to me and wasn’t moping around feeling sorry for herself. She boldly portrayed her body as something that surpassed any other body. It turned out, with further investigation, that she was a lingerie model. Something clicked that day in my head. Through her intense confidence she led me to believe she had one of the most amazing bodies in the world. I decided to strip down and took an intense look in the mirror and to my surprise I was consumed with confidence.
All of a sudden, I found that my imperfections had become the parts of my body that I was most confident in. Although I do consider myself plus-sized, I rock my body with confidence. Today, getting naked for photo shoots is simple, and it is all thanks to a change in myself. It is as if I am displaying to others that I love my body and the fears and shame took a back seat to my newly found confidence.
I want to spend my time just relaxing with the body I have, and not worrying that people might judge me. I guess in away, I have become a believer in nudism and in the nudist ideals. As Jordan from Young Naturists America once put it: “while we all might not be the same, we are all equal and should be judged on the essence of who we truly are.” He went on to say, “to hell with those who judge you based on the way you look, they are not worth losing any sleep over ”. After thinking about that for a while I realized that he was right, those people did not care about me anyway so why should I care about their opinions of the way I look?
I am a firm believer in living a healthy lifestyle. I do think people should eat right, workout and try to have a healthy body. But at the end of the day, these things should be done for health reasons and not superficial social pressures. That is why I think that nudism as a whole is a wonderful thing, it teaches us to accept that which we cant change about ourselves, to live in peace with our body and to strive for a healthy and happy life, while surrounding yourself with people who truly love you for who you are.
About the Author (Author Profile)Jordan Blum is a lifelong nudie and co-founder of Young Naturists America.
Read my article in The Bare Times, growing up as a chubby kid. Both male and female struggle with this, I just think that females are exposed to more unrealistic role models.
This is sad. I hear a lot of girls who are "overweight" say the scariest things sometimes. They try to say it jokingly, but there's always the secret hint in their voice. The laugh that follows, or the glint in their eye that comes after. You know that the joke they made about their weight has them crawling on the inside. And sometimes it makes me crawl too! I think females suffer from body image issues whether they're overweight, underweight, black, white, purple, whatever. I've always been underweight and I still am. I can never gain weight and I actually sometimes envy girls who are overweight and wish they were smaller! No matter what size you are, some people just get nasty comments from nasty people. I'm told to go eat a sandwhich. Or people insist that "Its okay for me to eat", when I have no eating problems at all. Moral of the story is girls sometimes want something opposite that they don't have. Some skinny girls wish they could gain weight. Some heavier girls wish they could be the skinny girl. It can go visa versa forever. Body image issues come in all shapes and sizes, not just over weight people. If I saw the anon person who made this article, I'd probably secretly wish I was her size too. Much love.